God is Faithful, Whatever the Answer...

Last night I was working on some homework I need to finish for a teacher recertification class I took over the summer. The class was on Asperger's Syndrome/High-Functioning Autism, and couldn't have come at a better time, because Seth was really struggling with our move/change, etc. I have the last part of the class this Thursday in Cedar Rapids, so Seth, Josie and I are driving back to Iowa for it. Anyway, as I have mentioned in previous posts, Seth is doing AMAZINGLY well so far. There are times I have been brought to tears praising God for the work He has done and is doing in Seth-in some ways he is a completely different kid than he has been the past few years. He will always be the child that brings me to my knees most often, don't get me wrong, but what a change I can see! In the past, I have been too consumed with knowing all the answers...does he have Asperger's, what is the right way to handle every situation (as if I would ever be able to figure that out!), what about his future, and on and on...I feel like God has really been moving me toward not focusing so much on all that "stuff" and instead choosing to focus on Him, trusting that He will be right with me as we navigate through whatever is ahead. I don't need all the answers, I just need to trust that the Lord has Seth in His hands.
So, last night I was looking through all my info and doing my assignments for this class, and all these old anxious feelings started creeping in again...does he, doesn't he, does it really even matter?!! I have a folder of stuff just from this class, and right in the middle of one of the packets on Aspergers, there was a lone sheet of paper that must have come from a sunday school class or maybe Seth's preschool last year...it said, "Jesus Can Do Anything." I flipped it over and it said, "Isn't it exciting that Jesus can do anything! Isn't he amazing? He can heal people. Remember that Jesus can do anything!" Now, I am not saying that Seth had Asperger's and I think he is now cured-we were never 100 percent certain, though things were definitely looking that way. And many of his deficits are not much of an issue anymore-there are times I really do think God has changed what we thought Seth's diagnosis was. But, whatever may or may not be, it did speak to me and reminded me that God CAN do anything and He is bigger than my anxieties and fears regarding Seth. And you have to admit, the placement of that lone sheet of paper is pretty cool. Only information on Asperger's Syndrome and that one sheet of paper. And just like that, I was back to resting and finding peace in God's faithfulness to me, whatever the answer.